Spiders. I absolutely hate spiders. I'm not fond of the daddy long legs spiders or tree spiders, but those don't bother me as much as the brown recluse or a wolf spiders. I had a brown recluse in my house just last week actually, climbing along the wall like he owned the place while the cat just stared at it. If the thing had been a lizard, the furry little bastard would have been climbing up the wall to get at it! lol

That is completely dependent on which account it is.  I check my hotmail (on average) once or twice a week.  Hardly anything important goes there, so I don't have to keep tabs on it much.  Now my gmail, I have that shit on my phone so it's checked compulsively!  I get a notification every time I get an email.  That's the account where all my important stuff goes so I have to keep an eye on it.  Good thing I can see who's emailed me what on my phone since I often CBA to actually log into the website to check.  

Earlier today.  My youngest son was admitted to the hospital this morning (like, early this morning) for a chest infection.  I said thank you to the nurse that brought me an extra pillow and blanket while we were waiting for a room to open up for him. 

The only time I'm afraid of the dark is when I'm sleeping and open my eyes only to see a pair of green eyes (belonging to my cat) thisclose to my face.  It makes me wonder what plot I interrupted by waking up.  As for fears in general, I'm afraid of not being good enough or failing.  Not being a good mother.  Failing to raise my kids right.  Not being a good enough wife.  Failing at marriage.  Sure the idea of a plane crashing into the house gives me the willies, but I wouldn't say that's a fear of mine.  

Vicodin.  

What a minute.  That sounds bad. 

I paid the co-pay for the prescription.  So technically I did buy.  Kinda.  

Mmm.  Enough.  From Darren's non-insurance covered medical costs (which are most of them) the total is about $320,000 to date.  The non-insurance covered costs from JT the bottom line is only marginally better to the tune of about $200,000.  Figure in our mortgage and that's another $160,000.  Those are the major things I can come up with at this point.  Then you have thee other kids who come with their own (expected) costs of being raised.  So the final tally (so far) is $680,000.  The house though, will get paid off.  Medial expenses for the boys just keep to grow.  There's no cure or anything for their disabilities, only treatment.  

When I was a kid (about 9 or so) my favorite one was Beauty and the Beast.  I still love that movie 20 years later!  

What Doesn't Kill You (Stronger) by Kelly Clarkson  

In my life, the saying what doesn't kill you makes you stronger is very much true and that's what this song is about.  But this whole freaking album is about empowerment, and I love that message so it's hard to pick one forever song, but that's my jam right now so I'm going with What Doesn't Kill You.  

Common sense.  For some reason, 1+1 no longer equals 2.  Take government for instance.  As individuals, most of us understand that if you have $500 to last you a month, but are spending $2,500 you're gonna go fucking bankrupt at some point!    Politicians don't seem to get that.  If they're spending more money than they have, they just borrow, borrow, borrow until they can't borrow no more!  What do they do when that happens?  They punish the little guy.  By the little guy I mean: veterans, retirees, children, poor people, disabled people.  I bet you if Tweedle Duh and Tweedle Dumb (and their cohorts) in Washington had to go without a paycheck, they'd develop common sense faster than Kim Kardashian can file for divorce.  

Speaking of Kim Kardashian, that's another thing missing in the world.  No, I don't mean her specifically, but more of the me, me, me attitude that she (and her family) embodies.  If people would be a little less selfish and think of others a little more, the world would be a kinder place.  I don't necessarily mean just throwing money at people (although I'm sure that would help people), but thinking of them.  Thinking of how you treat people.  Thinking about how what you do affects someone else.  Last week, in Michigan, an "anti bullying" law was passed.  I use the quotes because the law that was passed is nothing like the original bill that was introduced.  The law that passed states that bullying is not a punishable crime as long as the bully has a strong moral conviction.  In other words, it would be wrong for me to make someone's life hell because they're in the chess club; but if my Neo Nazi manual tells me to hate someone because they have a disability, that's fine because I have a strong moral conviction!  If the people who wrote that shit actually took the time to think of how it will affect others in practice, I'm willing to bet that they would have checked themselves and not passed such an atrocious bill!  

Personal accountability.   If you do something, take some damn responsibility for it!  People don't do that anymore.  When I was growing up, if I did something wrong, I was held accountable for my actions.  It doesn't seem like kids are taught that anymore and when they do something wrong, people are way too eager to blame: the teacher, music, video games, the babysitter, the neighbor, or even the damned dog.  I'm not saying that, if a girl gets raped then she should be blamed for that.  No, the rapist should be blamed for that and only the rapist.  What I'm saying is, if you're late for work because you didn't get yourself out of bed in time; don't blame your mom for not waking you up!  If you want to eat yourself up to 600lbs, that's up to you, but don't blame your family/job/friends/society for that decision.  Yes, those things may depress you and you may eat to deal with that depression, but that doesn't take the accountability off of you as an individual.  

Hope and faith.  I think the world is missing hope for the future and faith that things can be better/different.  We're so downtrodden by the politics of everything and the fact that there are the haves and have nots in the world, that there's not a lot of room to hope that things will be different, or have faith that each individual person can make a difference for the better of the worse.  One person may not solve the world's economic problems on their own, but hoping that things will get better and having faith that things will get better can have a tremendous impact on their environment and the people in it.  

Action.  Hoping for things to get better/change isn't always enough.  People need to take action too.  Be kinder to those around you.  Think before you act.  Ask someone how they're doing and actually give a damn about the answer.  Maybe think about saving that $30 for something you may need instead of purchasing that immediate want.  Learn the difference between need and want.  You might want a $700 gaming system, but do you really need it?